Day 5 - Back to the Real World

Posted on February 8, 2010 12:00:00am, by Gerrianne Clare

Getting back to the real world after being on vacation can be a rude awakening.  As I travelled back from Maui with it's sun, sand and surf, I felt an incredible sense of gratitude for all that I have in my life.  Living in the moment was easy to do as I took in my last day of Paradise with my family.  I did not keep notes for my blog as I decided to let let days 3 and 4 go unrecorded.  As a brief summary, they were amazing.  We had a beautiful last day, travelled the island to take in some different sites on our way to the airport. 

 
Flying all night to get back home was a little exhausting and when I walked into the house and saw the stack of mail and emails I needed to deal with I felt a little overwhelmed.  However, I set up a plan and a strategy for how I wanted this week to go.  I feel ready to get back to the real world.

Living in the Moment is more challenging to do in the real

The stack of mail that I had waiting for me included bills and items to be taken care of.  The most important was a notice from Revenue Canada that my business is being audited.  When I first read this, I was in a state of disbelief.  As I was exhausted from traveling I decided to include time to deal with this in my plan for today. 

When I woke up this morning, after exercising, having breakfast and playing with the dog, I started to tackle themountains of paper work. 
The notice from Revenue Canada was at the top of my list.  I have a lot going on these days, given that I was away for two weeks on vacation and I am running a workshop on Saturday, the time to spare to deal with the extras is a little tight..  Having to get together all the information for the auditors by March 1st caught me off guard.  So I decided to use my tools.

Tell myself the truth:

I am a little scared.  Why?  I am not sure, I know I have always been honest with everything I do especially with my taxes and finances, however, just the thought of someone looking at this more closely I feel a little vulnerable.  What if I made some huge mistakes, what if they think I have done something wrong, what if I get reassessed a huge amount and owe more taxes?  I  voiced all of my fears out loud.   I did some whole brain posture - for anyone who has worked with me on an individual basis they know what this is.  It includes crossing arms and legs in a particular way to insure that I am more whole brained as I approach a problem.  When I use this posture, I let myself go to the worst possible scenario.  The truth is, my mind already has this scenario in the background, so by letting this come to the surface, I am giving it some air time so that I can see from a broader perspective that this is a fear that is not based on truth but on my mind getting the better of me.  Once I did the whole brain posture, I felt much more at ease.  I spoke with my accountant, set aside time this evening to work on collecting receipts and invoices, and completing the paper work necessary.  I will deal with this more when I need to.   For this moment, I have done all I can.  If I were to spend my time in worry about what ifs, I would not get anything else done and the truth is, I have lots of other things I want to do.

 My commitment:

Back to the Blackberry alarm.  As I said in my original blog on this subject, I am going to tune in a minimum of 8 times during my waking hours.  It is important to me to tune into my body and pay attention to the messages I receive.  I have already managed to do this twice this morning but if I do not set the alarm the chances of me doing this are small - now that I am back to the real world.

I will let you know how it goes.  Take care and I will blog with you soon.

Gerrianne

 

 

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